Every now and then I get asked if I had an out of body experience. Pretty sure I did not. There were no thoughts or “dreams”, the reality is it was like there was nothing. No time, no light from heaven, no flashback on my life, nothing like that movie Sublime. Honestly, when someone asks me that I just say “I don’t think so”. I think some people look to those who have been near death thinking they may have a link to what the afterlife could be like. And I am not saying that people haven’t had these experiences, I am just not one of those. I just can feel the disappointment of someone who really hopes I have something exciting to tell.
For me I think it was in a way an escape from myself. I have a tendency to live in my own head. My thoughts and anxieties never stop. I never learned to shut it down, so I think this was to help my healing process. Stress never helps heal.
Yes, I have had some nightmares. Some have been about the ambulance ride, seeing people working on me, but all in silence. Also some of my heart stopping, having a visual on my heart in my chest just stopping for some reason this one is always in black and white. Which is strange because I usually dream in vivid color.
For me I think it was in a way an escape from myself. I have a tendency to live in my own head. My thoughts and anxieties never stop. I never learned to shut it down, so I think this was to help my healing process. Stress never helps heal.
Hi There! …..I love your sharing here on your blog. I am a survivor of three SCA too. I have LQTS Type 2. My last SCA in March of 2015 I did have a near death experience that has change me in more ways than one. I believe that there are many out there who may have an inherited cardiac disease that may be like me and have had these experiences. It is just no a common, easy talk about topic- so….I absolutely love that you have shown such visibility with your written words here! You will help many just by your continued blogs and sharing…….being authentic about our stories connects us in deeper ways……and even helps in healing and gaining momentum and strength to live a he artful fulfilled life! Even after an SCA or learning of a diagnosis like Sudden Arrhythmia Death Syndrome such as LQTS! Thank you for sharing your blog here! I love it!!!!! <3
Kat, That is so amazing to have survived three SCA. There is so much about LQTS that people don’t understand. I feel really grateful for being able to share. When I first thought of doing this I was worried how others would react. But the truth is being open about the experience is helping me, and I hope that others won’t shy away from opening that door either!
Chete