Obstacles

I have never been good with obstacles. One comes up and it’s always been hard for me to push through. It’s not that I give up but more like I give in or perhaps that’s the same. Never thought that I had the confidence to really do what I wanted to do, because it always felt like whenever I started something it either never materialized or it just completely fail through. I guess it just became so hard to figure out how to push, that I really and honestly stopped trying.

Now it’s changed, not sure it’s super dramatic, but it has. Going back to school has been hard, but it is teaching me that I can do things on my own and own it. Actually, be proud that I am accomplishing something that I have wanted to get back into for so long, and thrive in it.

I see the obstacles and I still have moments of “why the hell bother”, but I push through them. Because I have a constant reminder that I have went through something that not many survive. I just have to keep my drive going, which is hard for me keeping up the energy to do so, but it’s there and I am on fire for what I can accomplish.