I will say that I am by nature a bit of a loner, no I am not a hermit type person. I do love being around others, I just get my relaxation and piece of mind from being by myself. It was nice having everyone around me to help and to be there for my family. I missed my space and started to get impatient.
I think at first it was rally hard to be around people. I really didn’t have much to say. The emotions that were working through me were really complex and hard to explain to others. So, I just kept a lot to myself. I think in the end it did create a void between me and others around me. I needed that void there in order to start healing from the inside. Looking back it was what was needed to start a mourning processes for myself, which is an outlandish concept for me.